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      I had never felt so alone, so miserable in my entire life. I was drained of everything I had. No energy, no reason to stay alive. I has pushed all I could. There was no one who cared anymore...not even myself. I tried running and hiding...but there was no use he had taken over me. And I think it's time to tell the story.

      It was not an unusual day. I was making pizza, sitting in my room with my laptop online. I remember watching the funniest video. The slight sun was creeping through the curtains like it had power over how they moved. The slight "creek" of the door when the wind hit it comforted me, making me feel not so alone. I was laughing, hard. Crying in fact when I realized they were tears of despair. For what, I didn't know. I could feel him watching over everything I did. He was always there. I tried running, I gave up. I still hadn't given him a name and no one believed when I said someone was controlling me. They all told me to go to a mental hospital. But they couldn't help me. He had finally crossed the line, abuse. I was waking up in shreds. Cuts and bruises all over my body. He had started war and I was finally ready to fight back......

Sorry!

Sorry it has been a while. I have been doing a lot and focusing on other things I forgot about my blog. I will try and get back on the swing of writing everyday again for you guys. Sorry for the absence ! Be back soon!

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Struggles

I wanted to sit down and write. Write something formal, but yet I can't think of anything to write. I look forward to but also dread writing on this blog everyday.  I am always nervous about disappointing anyone that reads this. Not knowing what to write is one of the biggest struggles for writers. It scares me but makes me excited to continue writing for all of you guys. I hope you enjoy my writing and can relate!

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So

    I got up this morning not wanting to move or breathe. I soon pulled myself out of bed and got ready for my day. But all it takes is that one moment of not wanting to move or breathe that causes your whole world to be shut down. Don't let it control you.

            Man cannot explore the ocean until he looses sight of the shore.

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Productive

      I feel productive. I got up and did something to benefit myself. Which is a big step in the right direction for not only me..but the people in my life around me.  And I'm glad. I just hope it lasts.

 

               You can't start the next chapter if you keep re-reading the last one.

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Nothing

     As I look at the clock i see it is approaching 8 p.m. and think I should probably write a blog post. But there is nothing to write about. I feel shut down. Nothing I say or do makes me want to move, live, anymore. I am just not sure what is making me like this. And that is the problem....I can't find the problem, so, I can't find the solution. It's just as simple as that. 

  The key to happiness is making someone else feel like they are the cause of it. 

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Stress

    Stress is hard to deal with. Some people let it all out right away, some people keep it all in until they cant anymore. The worst part about having stress is the feeling that you might "explode" any moment in the back of your head. No one likes stress. It backs your life up. All of a sudden your life is on pause and there is nothing you can do about it....or at least you think. There are many ways to handle stress. Sometimes all you need is to sit down, close your eyes, and breath. But other times you really can't do anything about it. You just panic and don't know how to release everything. Just remember to take a break and step back once and a while, it always helps to see what is causing the stress, and maybe you can fix it this way.

      What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny compared to what lies                                                          within' us. 

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Admitting

      It is hard admit your problems. Especially if the only thing people have done about them is put you down. But you are going to have to do it sometime. So, why not start now? The sooner you admit the sooner people can accept you for who you really are. Don't wait until you think they are ready, do it when they will least expect it. This could show them you are trustworthy and can say anything anytime to them. Just don't let anyone change who you are and stay true to yourself. 

          There is always someone there for you, even when you think no one is. 

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Bad News

      Bad news is difficult to tell someone and when you finally do tell them it usually does't go that well. Especially when that person your trying to tell is yourself. No matter how hard you try you can't, won't, believe it. And no matter how many times you say to yourself this is good, I will be fine, everything is okay, it won't be. You sugar coat it yourself. Facing yourself is one of the most difficult things you might ever have to do. And when you have done it, and done it successfully, that's when you know nothing can stop you anymore. The more you are able to except everything that has happened to you, the more you will be able to leap over it next time! DON'T GIVE UP YOURSELF! You know you can do it...so...why stop now?

                                You are stronger than you think!

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Understand!

   Do people ever invade your privacy? Yea, well if anyone ever has you know how I feel. It's almost suffocating. People think it's their business to know your business. Most of the time they just do it because they have no drama, or interesting things, going on his/her life. I just don't get it! Can people please stick to what is going on in their life...not mine?! Usually when someone doesn't have drama going on in his/her life it's a good thing and you should probably avoid any....NOT GET INTO SOMEONE ELSE S PERSONAL BUSINESS. If you are one of these people....please, please, stop. It's not any of your business. You don't know what that person does when your not around so don't try and get into it. 

         Stay strong because it may be story now, but it never rains forever. 

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